Around 1998 I created my alter-ego on the Internet of Orion Blastar and began posting as him in character. Many cannot tell when I am posting in character or out of character. Orion is a space pirate, and in order to bring him to the present, I had him travel back in time via his space ship.

Anyway Michael Crawford suggested that I create an account here, and research how to write better. I am currently on disability, and have been out of work since 2002. I am trying to find a form of income that allows me to work part-time at home and maybe help me get off of disability. Like Michael, I too suffer from schizo affective disorder.

When I write as Orion Blastar or one of my other countless characters on the Internet, and even go so far as troll as then, it helps me cope with my mental illness better. But I thought maybe I am just wasting time, and should put that creative energy into writing books instead. I want to do something positive with my life, something I can earn a living from.

Anyway if you heard of me before, I did a lot of Andy Kaufman type of humor trolls that went for a gut reaction ala Tony Clifton as my Orion Blastar character. In November 2004, while I was suffering from suicidal thoughts, I got it out of my system by having Orion Blastar commit suicide and had another one of my characters post about his death. I was dealing with a lot of stress at the time both on and off the Internet and quite a few people had told me to go kill myself (it is something they use on Kuro5hin against those of us who are mentally ill, "Shotgun mouthwash now!" or some other remark they make. One friend who turned ex-friend told me that her pastor told me to go kill myself in email, and many people online said the same thing. So in order to get it out of my system, I wrote about Orion Blastar committing suicide instead of me. But some people confused Orion Blastar for me anyway.

If I get some time, I will try to submit some of my Orion Blastar writings to my diary and see who comments on them. Thanks.